Dath Maul? Unfortunately, Palpatine.
Dooku? Unfortunately, Palpatine.
Darth Vader? Unfortunately, Palpatine.
Death Star blows up Alderaan? Unfortunately, Palpatine.
First Order blowing up Hosnian Prime? Unfortunately, Palpatine.
This realisation brought to you by the realisation that it's pretty much how I plan my Star Wars fic: how's Palpatine going to fuck shit up this time? Even when he's not there on-screen, he's always there in the background, lurking. /is currently in the Unfortunately, Palpatine part of the Fake Dating FOR GREAT JUSTICE fic
The last time I made a post under my own username over there looks to have been in August of 2010. Since I basically remain logged in with that one via Firefox and take a peek around every few months, it comes through without an inactivity notice.
In another one, I spotted that I had uploaded some user icons others had made from the first issue of the original team of Excalibur. So prior to the permanent deletion of that journal, I saved the icons, and uploaded them Dreamwidth. Nothing was there to be saved in the rest, and it's fine for them to join the list of the deleted.
If you're on the Dreamwidth side of the fence, you can see one of the icons I spared is being used for this post.
This week was half term, which meant I had nothing on in the evenings. I felt sure this would mean I'd be able to get lots of writing and TV watching done. On Monday I did some work on my hetswap fic and watched the earliest of the four Cats Countdown episodes on my PVR. And then it all went to pot.
Missy was ill. She's fine now, but she was sleeping a lot. So theoretically I had more time to get stuff done, but in reality I was too busy worrying about her. And being distracted by the internet.
And then once she was better I decided that I'd do some of the house cleaning in the evenings so I wouldn't have to do it all at the weekend. So between playing with her and cleaning that was my whole evening.
And then work was busy and I didn't have enough sleep so of course I then kept waking up before my alarm. And not much later today and yesterday. So even though I've had a quiet week, I am tired.
This week I'm out every night. But it's fine that I have four weeks of TV recorded, plus stuff from Christmas I haven't watched. And writing deadlines are for watching them whoosh by...
Mirrored from my blog.
the bad news is - this is because the plumber advised me to tape a lot of binbags over the wall, where all the tiles need to be pulled over and then replaced with a different kind of morter that won't just disintergrate. and the plumber, though he fitted bathrooms 6 years ago (he told me much of this) does not want this job.
so now we have to a) buy more tiles b) get someone ELSE in to remove and put back the tiles, which will take several days and thus be megabucks :( i am hoping my dad might be able to do the removing or something...
but at least the leak is gone! and the plumber will come back and change the kitchen taps, which (being part of the house when we bought them) of course now both don't work. curses, etc.
otherwise - things are generally moving along. hopefully new old-door will be fitted next week! it's in the shed now.
also - jeremy brett is freddy in my fair lady. for so many years i did not know this - i mean, i wouldn't have cared before i started watching him properly as holmes, but also: SO WEIRD. freddy, eh?
his holmes continues divine. we've watched up to episode 8 (the copper beaches) of 13 from series 1. next up - mycroft!
Apparently no bookstore or library in the five boroughs has Communion by bell hooks available, which I super want to read after chatting about it with hope, but my lady M today convinced me to give Future Sex by Emily Witt a try until I can find Communion. M also seriously encouraged me to think about this book I may have in me that's coming out of my memoir class — like, it may just be that my career kicks off with a book, if I can get it done in the next six months or whatever. (I'm sure in later years that will seem wildly optimistic! But hey, it's a project, and it's all something I really want to research and dig into.)
Ramen tomorrow with a guy who was my very best friend at age 3 (we've hung out since then! he is a cool dude as an adult too). I think I have the solution to my freelancing anxiety, which is to remember that the work isn't about me and that I'm here to honor my subjects (thanks, first episode of season 3 of Chef's Table!). I feel much more optimistic about having a plan for the future, which, you know, always seems worth sharing and commemorating. \o/
work has been hard, and i've played lots of board games. i did my first swap on boardgamegeek this week - which was very exciting. i literally swapped away the only two well-thought of games that i didn't want, though, so now i don't expect i'll swap again for a long time. also - when i opened the box that had arrived it contained not 'thurn and taxis' (an award-winning game about the bavarian postal service) and 'eight-minute empire' (a tiny area-control game), but instead 'ivor the engine' (a game about a children's television programme i haven't watched that apparently contains sheep). we would have played ivor before sending it on, but alas it was still in its original packaging. i await thurn and taxis still.
for now, here's a review of changes to 'The Web' - a terrible episode. UPDATED and COMPLETED.
( Defiant - if a little shrill )
Fandom: Mass Effect
Warnings: Major Character Death
Relationships: Kaidan Alenko/Female Shepard, Thane Krios/Female Shepard
Characters: Female Shepard (Mass Effect), Kaidan Alenko, Thane Krios
Additional Tags: Canonical Character Death, Earthborn (Mass Effect), Hurt/Comfort, Insomnia, Mass Effect 1, Mass Effect 2, Mass Effect 3, Multiple Relationships, Nightmares, One Shot, Pre-Canon, Ruthless (Mass Effect), Soldier (Mass Effect), Tumblr: masseffectholidaycheer
Summary: Shepard's story is made up of sleepless nights, cooling cups of coffee, and conversations.
Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Harry Potter/Fred Weasley/George Weasley, Fred Weasley/George Weasley
Characters: Fred Weasley, George Weasley, Harry Potter
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Holly Poly, Injury Recovery, Hurt/Comfort, Incest, Not Epilogue Compliant, One Shot, Polyamory, Threesome, Threesome - M/M/M
Summary: Looking back, Harry wasn't entirely certain how he'd ended up working for the twins. With the twins. One of those, at least.
Fandom: Dragon Age II, Dragon Age - All Media Types
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Fenris/Female Hawke, Female Hawke/Varric Tethras, background Female Hawke/Isabela, background Fenris/Isabela
Characters: Female Rogue Hawke, Fenris (Dragon Age), Varric Tethras
Additional Tags: Friends to Lovers, Friends With Benefits, Hangover, Holly Poly, One Shot, Polyamory
Summary: Hawke hadn't seen it coming. Oh, it made sense, when it was all said and done. None of it was really all that surprising. She just hadn't seen it coming. Life was like that.
Let's see. If you bought anything from my Virtual Garage Sale post a few weeks ago and live in the States, you hopefully should have received your items by now. Let me know if they haven't arrived, and I'll try to look into it. (International people, yours will probably take a bit longer to get there.)
On a related note, that post is still up if anyone is still interested in anything. My finances are looking better for the time being, thanks to everyone's help, but it definitely wouldn't hurt for me to get a bit more money to throw at my credit cards and/or my savings account. If nothing else, it would give me more of a back-up in the future if things explode again.
I'll probably make some family- and work-related posts over the next few days, and maybe even some more fannish ones if my brain is up to it. We'll have to wait and see if it cooperates?
ETA: I mailed out the packages in batches, since I have only have a 45 minute lunch break to run errands during so I couldn't send out more than a few at a time. It's looking like a few people (two so far) who I'm fairly certain were in the last last batch haven't gotten theirs yet, despite it being over a week since they mailed out. They'll hopefully be arriving within the next day or two, if you haven't gotten your package yet, but please still do let me know so that I can look into it.
( The Last Jedi spoiler spec and pic )
GotG 2/May 5th also can't come soon enough! I made these icons mostly from the trailers. Feel free to use them! They're sized for DW- most of them are too big for LJ. Credit/Comment, no hotlinking please.
( GotG icons- mostly Baby Groot )
Also The Originals is back in less than a month! Check out the promo poster!
( TO poster, icons and spec )
And as of 9 hours ago on twitter, Kylie Bunbury still doesn't know if Pitch will be renewed. *sigh*
ETA: Tried to cut to save image loading on reading/friend's pages but DW still hates div/cut tag interaction so I apologize for the formatting. *siiigh*
She harassed me for years and is still doing it; she carried on elaborate campaigns to destroy the careers of other pro writers in her genre; she befriended people and then blackmailed them; the list goes on. As far as anyone can tell, she's devoted her entire life to being horrible, online and off, for a minimum of twelve years now.
I have encountered a lot of mean people in my life. But Winterfox is the only person I've ever known who makes people miserable as a full-time job. I literally do not know how she finds the time to bully as many people as she does, as constantly as she does. She could afford to bankroll organizations protecting human rights or rescuing orphan kittens. She could create her own publishing house. She could go on really awesome long vacations. But no. She just hunches over her computer 24-7, spewing vitriol in all directions.
I think we need a word that means "pathetic and a little bit darkly funny, but also genuinely harmful." I suggest "winterfoxy."
So why am I posting now? What's new?
The more things change, the more they stay the same. Winterfox is still doing everything she used to do, as far as I can tell. She still makes death threats. The people she blackmailed are still being blackmailed. She still harasses me in the exact same way she always did: I review a comic book about gay men in Iran, she accuses me on Twitter of being a child abuser.
At least, I assume she's still attacking me. I have asked (and still ask) people to not inform me if they see her saying anything about me. Since I don't do Twitter anyway, this means I miss about 99% of her activities and so only randomly and occasionally hear about it when she lies about or abuses me. Last time was about six months ago, so I imagine I'm due. Bring it, Winterfox. If you tweet about me a thousand times, I'll probably hear about one of them. I'm sure you'll find that motivational.
I am writing about her again for a couple reasons. One is to link to a surprisingly funny (considering the subject matter) essay by my friend, fantasy author Zen Cho, Being an Itemized List of Disagreements . Another is a thoughtful and heartfelt post by another friend, artist and writer M Sereno, A Letter to Apex Editors . Both were written to protest the embrace of a vicious and destructive bully, protect vulnerable people from her, and alert people who might not know exactly who they're dealing with to her past and current activities.
That's also why I posted. (So linking is fine.) Winterfox doesn't scare me any more. She's way too much of a coward to risk hiring a hit man, let alone confronting me in person. Anyone who believes I'm a child abuser or pro-rape or whatever because some rando on Twitter said so is not only not someone whose opinion I care about, they probably don't even know who the hell I am. I don't go to science fiction conventions, so she can't get me ostracized there. There's really nothing she can do to harm me.
But there are other people she can harm. There are people she is harming right now. She and her supporters make the science fiction world unwelcoming to her targets, who are disproportionately women of color. They also make it unwelcoming to onlookers who see people like them getting abused with impunity and even applause, and decide to go elsewhere. Not fucking okay, Winterfox supporters!
Sometimes life hands you difficult and complex ethical problems in which the right thing to do is genuinely unclear. This is not one of them. If you are endorsing someone whose big contribution to your field is to tell women of color that they should be raped by dogs, you are not one of the good guys.
I'm not calling for a boycott of her fiction. I'm not even saying you should stop being buds with her, though if you are, for God's sake don't email her anything she could hold over you later. What I am saying is that you should not ostracize people on her account, join in on bullying, believe anything she says about anyone without checking it yourself, brush off her death threats, or invite her to a roundtable on intersectionality. For instance.
Also, if you see someone interacting with her who doesn't know her history, you might want to warn them. I told her once to stop verbally abusing people, and I have now been harassed by her for six years and counting. Others thought she was their friend, and are still being blackmailed by her. If people know about her and choose to interact with her anyway, that's up to them. But if they don't know, a heads-up might save them a world of trouble.
If you already totally agree with me and would like to get Winterfox's goat, I have some suggestions for ruining her day.
You could donate to Outright Action International . They do stellar work in international LGBTIQ rights. I raise money for them, and Winterfox attacks me every time I do it online. So clearly, donating to them would really annoy her.
You could buy some art from M Sereno. It's gorgeous, and I bet it would really piss Winterfox off to know that people are financially supporting and appreciating the work of someone who had the nerve to speak out about her. Especially, to continue the theme of queer rights, the lovely print "To Live."
You could buy Zen Cho's awesome books, ditto: Sorcerer to the Crown, The Perilous Life of Jade Yeo, Spirits Abroad, and The Terracotta Bride.
You could buy or review books by people she harasses and whose careers she's tried to destroy, and also by people who supported them. That list is very long so I'll just link to a few: The Grass King's Concubine by Kari Sperring, Serpentine by Cindy Pon, Glass Houses: Avatars Dance by Laura Mixon, To Shape the Dark (Feral Astrogators) by Athena Andreadis, Rosewater by Tade Thompson, The Fifth Season by N. K. Jemisin, Shadowboxer by Tricia Sullivan, The Red Tree by Caitlin Kiernan, Redemption in Indigo by Karen Lord, Mindplayers by Pat Cadigan, and What Fates Impose (includes a story by Rochita Loenen-Ruiz).
I initially wasn't going to post more than just links to the other two posts. I'm seriously ill and didn't think I had the energy for either the writing of or the fallout from a post like this. But when I started, I realized that in fact, I'm sick enough that I really don't give a damn. Also, apparently thinking about Winterfox gives me some energy. The WTF factor alone could launch a thousand ships.
I realized something else, too. No matter how bad things get for me, I will always have one thing to be grateful for: at least I'm not Winterfox.
If anyone remembers me posting about that irresistibly awesome glitter nail polish fall before last? The plan, at the time of that post, was to get a couple-three base colours to use with it...and then somehow, along the way, this went and happened:
(Basically: bright/rich colours and sparkly things make me happy, and also abstract art makes me happy, and thus, having a simple shot of happiness literally at the tips of my fingers at all times = AWESOME. Also, taking up nail art provided me with a nice, maintainable vehicle for creative expression while long-running health drama in the immediate family sucked me dry of everything else, and seriously: I do not do well for long periods of time without some way to express myself creatively, so having it there to fill the void really made a difference. <3)
Soooo, yeah. Nail art! That's happened. I am far from a pro at it and probably never will be, with my congenitally unsteady hands, but it makes me happy. <3
And since wanting to (finally) share the stuff was 99% of my motivation for making this post, have some piktshers:
( A selection, in collage form, of my nail art from the last year and not-quite a half )
More recs! Not sure I looked through the archive properly though because I kept seeing duplicates galora?
i'm starting to feel it's right- M, Jyn/Cassian, 2853 words
This songfic had me giggling and I love how each section is inspired by a single line from Shakira's "Hips don't lie". There's a nod to AotC, sparkles and too tight pants. The Good Crack. :DDD
you only live a day (but it's brilliant anyway)- G, Galen/Bodhi, 2442 words
I love how this fic plays with time and memory, and the things that evoke emotional bonds. Absolutely beautiful.
Homecoming- G, Finn/Rey, 729 words
This fic is so them, capturing their incandescent happiness at being reunited again. Like that hug on Starkiller, but with kissing.
Rogare- M, Chirrut/Baze, 1811 words
Lovely backstory that explores those recurring Rogue One themes of faith and hope, and re-kindling (or perhaps finding anew) what was lost.
Say You Like Me, Just For The Night- T, Sam/Maria, 2140 words
Fake dating and competency kink. I'm totally sold on this pairing now. LOL
I got the most gorgeous, amazing art gift for Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries. Like, I can't believe my luck, it is SO PRETTY, I can't take my eyes off it:
A Gay Outing (0 words) by Anonymous
Fandom: Miss Fisher's Murder Mysteries
Rating: General Audiences
Relationships: Phryne Fisher & Elizabeth MacMillan, Phryne Fisher/Elizabeth MacMillan
Characters: Phryne Fisher, Elizabeth MacMillan
Additional Tags: Art
Summary: Phryne & Mac go out for a drive.
Is that not the prettiest thing ever?! ♥ ♥ ♥
( A few other fills I really enjoyed under the cut )